Today I’d like to share a story about a life experience of mine, and I hope that some of you will be able to relate to it. It’s about public speaking, the fear and anxiety it can create, but also the power that comes from taking a step forward that is uncomfortable.

Before we get started, you should know that I had mostly forgotten about this experience until the other day, when it stepped forward as a new story idea. Not only did the idea come through as a powerful nudge, but I’ve had several synchronicities come through to help anchor it.

Sitting down to write about this experience brought back some of the feelings I experienced at the time. I feel now that this was an important exercise for me to complete, and maybe it will help someone who is stepping forward with their own scary moment.

So let’s get started.

This took place a decade ago, and at the time, I ran a large lifecycle and asset management program for the City of Ottawa. Our program was responsible for every personal computing device, every phone, and all licensed software. It was a busy but fun role, and I understood each city department and the roles they played to keep our city functioning.

One morning, my manager came to me and said, Tom, I need you to give a talk about our program.

My reaction was a long pause. I felt my body twist and turn energetically as I tried to focus on what she had just said, and yes, these words had actually just come out of her mouth.

I remember confidently saying. Here’s the deal. I’ll create all the talking points and all the slides for you to give the presentation. In reality, I was anything but confident; I was more than a little uncomfortable. I was terrified.

My manager said. “No, Tom, you’re giving the talk. I’ll approve what you talk about.” And with that, she left my office.

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